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Too much distraction, too little time

city dwellers now have too little time, too much distraction.

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Welcoming the new year of 2010

Happy New Year! New Year resolutions are one way to look forward to having a better year than last.

the demise of any mobile phone pagan owns

Yesterday. Yesterday I lost my phone. AGAIN. Yes, again. I think it’s the… 6th time? 8th?

I first realized my phone was missing when I was sitting in a meeting room with a bunch of movers-n-shakers ladies waiting for the chair to arrive. There was really no point going back to the waiting room which I sat for about 1 hour waiting for the meeting to commence, really, as I knew it in my heart that it will be gone. Just like it was no point pointing out to all the very helpful staff, who helped me searched high and low for it by the way, that my phone is nicely bundled up in the sweet-pinky-fluffy-too girly-phone pouch that I just bought in Times which one couldn’t possibly miss. I mean, that’s why they stole it at first place isn’t it.

Oh yes, I forgot, I put my phone on silence, thereby killing any possible chance to ever find it again. I was going in to a meeting, wasn’t I?

First, it was rage. How could anyone be so stupid to grab a lousy samsung – not forgetting the cutest pink phone pouch – and not return back to the pretty gal who didn’t notice it fell off her bag?

Secondly, it was terror and then rage. All the information and pictures and music and contacts and the lovey-dovey SMSes that JC sent to me were GONE! Hmm… no, I don’t have any nude pictures inside it. Thank God. I mean, how can ANYONE be so INSENSITIVE?!

Then, it was a feeling of helplessness. Losing touch with the whole world, i.e. fingers-reaching list of good friends, family, lover, workmates, and vendors isn’t a great sensation unless you are in a monatory trying to sort out your life. And I had no one to call to and tell them I’ve lost my phone – albeit again, and no way to channel my anger and frustration. What an irony.

To get even better, my internet connection cocked up on me when I arrived home and tried to do a shoutout in gmail, msn and facebook that I lost my phone. The sense of soliditary gets keener. My hormones were deeply affected as I was feeling PMSy anyway.

After all that, I mean after 24 hours without the phone, I was trying to feel ‘Zen’ about it. No phone, no connection, no interaction, no bother. I tried, but failed. I felt shitty the whole day and still am. And I feel very, very, absolutely lonely.

Makes me wonder if losing a mobile nowadays is equivalent or worse than losing a lover.

bleeding feet

This morning I broke a glass and it cut my feet.
It didn’t stop bleeding for a good five minutes.
The toilet floor was covered with my fresh blood.
I couldn’t help but think, is someone up there trying to ask me to clear up my head and be thankful to my current life?
Stop thinking so much.
And stop being bored.

emotionally void

What is that you called? Happiness?
What is that you mentioned? Sad?
What is that you asked? Exaltation?
What is that you said? Disappointment?

I’m sorry, but I do not know what you are talking about.
Asked me again when I have a couple of fermented barley juice sitting nicely in my tummy.
Maybe then, perhaps then, I will comprehend what you were trying to express to me.

rain rain go away

Did anyone noticed how it rains HEAVILY almost everyday at almost the same time for some days? Like two weeks earlier the rain started about 4pm, then it shifted to about 5pm, then moved to about 6, 7-ish, causing KL traffic to be at a massive standstill.

Now… this week it rained as it pleased. I recently have a little pond in my garden (thanks to JC! – will upload pictures soon) and then I got to live in fear that my little guppies will commit suicide since the water level is so high everyday.

And it gets so cold in the office with full air-con blasting away.

Notwithstanding is the temperamental flash floods due to poor drainage system…

Suddenly, I miss JC and I want to go home and play games NOW NOW NOW!

闷

每隔三几个月就会有很莫明的觉得闷。

很闷很闷。
极闷极闷。

做什么都起不起了劲。
对着任何人超过五分钟已觉得累。
再美再好的东西亦觉得不过尔尔。

天啊，谁来救救我的闷境!

长相

今天突然发现，长得略为平头整面已经不易, 所以，长得美实为天赐，必需好好珍惜并多加以利用。

兮，怪不得通街都喜欢看明星，模特儿，美女，帅哥。

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